Nightmares

I got tired of living the dream and came back to my nightmares.
Open every closet door and peak under every bed in this house-
Where are the monsters? Am I not afraid of the dark?
Why don't I miss you
And how come nothing seems as dead as it used to?
In the mirror, all I can see is myself,
When I listen to the voices in my head I smile.
I look at pictures of you and I read between the lines
Of every letter you sent me lately.
Somehow, I don't fit in this dark place anymore,
You have been washed off my skin a long time ago.
Feel free to look for me here,
Set traps to try and catch me again;
I'm not one bit smarter than I was back then.
Just living the dream until a better nightmare comes along...

We

Perfectly trained animals of prey
and an accident waiting to happen...
We circle the spot where blood was shed,
we sniff and grin at memories too fresh to ignore.
Arching backs, cracking knuckles,
clean paws and dirty fangs.
The victims lay silent, praying for a miracle,
spare no one, kill'em all.
I raise my eyes from the ground,
take a deep, rancid breath
and unleash hell on unsuspecting bystanders...
Where's life, there's hope.
But round here,
we don't care!

A note

Caught in a world of half and half not's
I ride the waves like demons riding the flames,
Picking myself up, every time I fall.
Taking it day by day I have no hopes left,
Cause I don't need second chances
When I shoot to kill.
I take my fantasies and rip them into pieces,
Burning down my safe place.
Today I'm bringing my fears to life
And they're coming for you.
Now it's time to call in a few favors
And raise hell like I used to.
I trust your door is locked tight
And your bed is fireproof;
There'll be nowhere left to hide.

My war

Lay down your guns, I’m not here to fight
This is one battle I don’t need to win.
I’ll take off my armor and let you see me naked.
I don’t have secret ways to poison you
And whatever tricks I taught myself,
I will not use today.
Tie me down, if you must
But these teeth that bite deep into your flesh
Will not harm you.
We fought many times, like soldiers,
Like fools,
We know all the rules
And we break them, just the same.
You‘ve given me beautiful scars,
I’ve watched you burn by my hand.
Now here I am,
Between your sheets,
Wide open,
Completely vulnerable.
Hurt me, or kill me
Just take your time with me.
Tomorrow we can always start another war
In my bed,
In my head.

One

I'm the one with an extra heart on my sleeve
and I'm always honest when I pretend I don't care.
I got fire burning in my eyes when I'm asleep
and I like to keep myself sedated.
For everything I do there's a price
I'm making you pay.
I raise hell with just a word, but
I'm usually the quiet one, in my corner.
In my head, I've killed you a hundred times
and then sold my soul to get you back.
There are many names for what I am,
but I never liked hiding behind one.
You can try to find me, track me down;
I'll always be one step ahead
and never in the shadow.
There's no words to describe me,
still, there is this one little twitch of terror
that always brings me closer
to you all.
I'm unique and there's a million like me out there
just waiting their turn.

The chase

Back to where the prey becomes the hunter,
we switch places just because we can.
I loaded my weapons long ago,
waiting for you to get in my sight.
It's on
like never before.
I got a taste for blood and
lots of time to kill.
Let's start the chase,
let's take one last look
and try to remember who started this war,
because we both know
I'll win.

Mirrors

So here I am,
stuck between two mirrors-
one that shows how things really are
and one that distorts everything.
I see myself in both of them,
strong, yet afraid to go on;
paranoid, yet powerful .
Which is the right one?
If I turn off the lights
will I find my own, true self?