give up

blow me
to pieces, small pieces.
rip my head off.
put me out of your misery.
it's no big deal, i know.
take away your light,
make me crawl in mud and blood.
give me scars, deep scars.
shed blood,
shed my blood.
see if i care...
break my heart,
break it.
open me and tear me up inside,
have me beg
for mercy.
I'm all yours for the taking.
and when that day might come,
although it never will,
i will
write
no
more.

a date

clear up my head,
go away, one last time.
we'll meet again tomorrow,
on the edge of the same building,
contemplating infinity.
a bitter smile, carved on the corner of my lips,
it's a mask i can't dispose.
i'll wash the silence off my face,
get new colours for my nightmares.
you go away now,
leave me alone
in my oversaturated universe,
i'm inventing new names
for my old fears,
just to stay busy.
i left the world behind and bought this
-oh so craved for-
peace of mind.
must abuse it for what it's worth,
wait for me there,
i'll soon be out of breath.